.i don't want to think. by MelissaTheGinger
it's that simple
but the simplest things
are always the hardest to reach
i can't help but think
how easy it'd be
if you could just escape everything
and leave all your thoughts behind.
because now i have nowhere to go
nowhere to hide from
everything that goes in and out of my brain
i can't stay awake
or else reality threatens
to bring out the worst of my worries in things
and i can't sleep
because my dreams are haunted
and are turned into nightmares
by people and memories that are long
since over with
but part of me holds onto them
and i don't know why
maybe it's because
those were the times
that i felt so alive
and not so worried and scared and sad
i was happy at one point
but it's gone now
and my brain wants to play cruel tricks
on the part of me
that can't control it's feelings
happy placeIt's fall. The leaves are a fading green, with orange, yellow, red and brown spots.happy place by MelissaTheGinger
There's a long road ahead of me, but I don't know where it leads.
Trees line either side of the leafy path.
In the distance, between the trees, mountains.
Overlooks with beautiful scenery.
Fall is my favorite season.
I'm alone, though I can't see myself.
The air is crisp and I can smell warm apple cider and pumpkin pie.
The road is never ending.
I'm just walking forward, never once looking back.
I stop and take a deep breath, taking in my surroundings.
I'm happy, I'm calm.
I continue walking, and I see so many things.
I'm imagining a perfect world created for me, and only me.
I don't know how long I'm there, but the sun doesn't seem to be going down.
It's a never-ending fall evening.
There's small gusts of wind, but I don't really feel them.
I know I'm wearing a scarf, a beanie, a sweater, jeans and boots, e
feelingi can't say it enoughfeeling by MelissaTheGinger
how much i think about
how easy it would be
to not feel
if there was just a switch
that you could flip
and you never had to feel pain
and how much easier
life would become
you could live and not regret anything
it would be simple
you could move on
and do something new
but the only problem
that i could see
would be that we would lose ourselves
and the type of person we really are
if we didn't feel
so you have to think
would i rather be someone else
and never be sad again
or would i rather keep who i am
and go through the struggle of life
wondering when it will all be over ?
goodbyesmy evening was okaygoodbyes by MelissaTheGinger
i was doing alright
until the doorbell rang
and i hated my night
i tried to forget it
i tried not to care
i thought i could ignore it
but it was still there
the thoughts that linger
and bring back memories
you think about everything
and the angels sing their haunting melodies
you try and put your mind to sleep
and smile as much as you can
but that disguise breaks down
and you just cry out "damn"
because the pain that conceals itself
behind those big doe eyes
just shows how much
i hate goodbyes
What I do doesn't really matter, since it consists of wading around in the sea of life, constantly poked and prodded at by bigger fish and fishermen. Constantly wondering why it's so big and spacious and why some things are different than others. Why I can't have things that I want because it'll hurt in the end. Who knows? I might be searching one day and find treasure in the wreckage. |
I am a mermaid. Any arguments are invalid.